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October 18, 2022 · 19:11

The Goal Is To Fail - I Will Not Lose Podcast - #0000

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I'm your host, Tony Ortiz. I'm on a mission to collect stories of people who learned a lesson not from their monumental success, but from the missteps along the way. This podcast is a thought exercise that great lessons can be learned from what may seem, at the time, to be a catastrophic failure. These stories are defined by strength it took to persevere and evolve to the next level. The tone is intimate conversation between friends and started as an outlet to promote endeavors going on in my network.…

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I'm your host, Tony Ortiz. I'm on a mission to collect stories of people who learned a lesson not from their monumental success, but from the missteps along the way. This podcast is a thought exercise that great lessons can be learned from what may seem, at the time, to be a catastrophic failure. These stories are defined by strength it took to persevere and evolve to the next level. The tone is intimate conversation between friends and started as an outlet to promote endeavors going on in my network. The popularity of an outlet for creativity, promotion, and open dialogue caught wind fast. These stories need to be told.

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  1. Mic check 1212. This is exciting times, ladies and gentlemen. We have just hit record on the

  2. first episode zero of I Will Not Lose podcast. So what are you listening to? Who am I? I'll be

  3. your host, Tony Ortiz. I'm a marketing entrepreneur, father of two, a wrestler, I'm a gamer,

  4. I'm a techie, I'm somewhat of a philosopher, although I don't care too much about philosophy.

  5. I think it adds a lot of questions to things that we probably shouldn't be questioning that we don't

  6. have an answer to. So this podcast isn't going to be spending a whole bunch of time, but there will

  7. be some thought experiments, things like that. Just to get it out of the way, I have to shout

  8. out a few very important people that helped me get everything started. I'm going to start in order of

  9. really just timeline, not really importance. Nobody's more important than another.

  10. But I want to shout out Ionav Arts. It's A-I-N-A-I-A-N-A-V Arts. I'll throw up the tag on there. That's V Alvarado. She definitely supported doing a podcast, told me that there is hope for people wanting to hear my voice and long form content. So she helped me believe in myself and put this together.

  11. Once I decide I'm going to do something, I really start to formulate it for a while.

  12. So trying not to suffer too much from perfectionism.

  13. I knew this wasn't going to be perfect when we started, but I'll be damned if I would

  14. have thought we would have got this far as fast as we did.

  15. So big shout out to everyone who believed in me.

  16. Big shout out to Jay Palos, audio engineer.

  17. I like to reach out to my network when I'm going to do something.

  18. And I just said, look, you know, I got this crazy idea.

  19. I'm going to start a podcast.

  20. why don't we figure out what kind of equipment let's walk through this you know I um shared a

  21. job with uh audio video with Jay and he was able to pick me out with the Samsung SM57 and SM58s

  22. um but that didn't help me because all I knew was which mic I needed to get I didn't actually

  23. have the mic just yet and I didn't plan on putting any budget into a podcast as of a week ago but

  24. Then I reached out to my buddy, Johnny Melendez. Big shout out to Johnny Melendez. This has been

  25. my best friend since maybe kindergarten. And we used to spend some time in the studio. For those

  26. of you who don't know me, I had a background as a rapper, which seems like such a long life ago

  27. that I didn't even mention it in my Who Am I? But we spent a lot of time in his basement building

  28. out multiple studios. So I knew if I needed to do this, he was the guy to do it. So I called him up.

  29. he said, oh yeah, I got an SM57 and an SM58. So I was like, that's great. I want to start this.

  30. When do you think he could do it? He said, I'll be there in about three hours. So we came down,

  31. we realized we needed an interface, came and found, ran to Guitar Center and found this used

  32. Tascam. I think it sounds pretty good. I mean, it's got a warranty on it. So hey, fuck it.

  33. So what made me decide to actually go and do this? Well, there was a lot of thought that went

  34. into it. I'm currently a full-time creative entrepreneur, so I don't have time to do it.

  35. I know the respect for the game and the equipment that's necessary, so I don't have the equipment

  36. to do it. And then I said, you know what? All of these things, if I don't set the goal to be the

  37. next Joe Rogan, I really can't lose. If I get five viewers that listen into my thoughts, this is a

  38. success. So started formulating on the idea, I will not lose. So I said, let me say I'm going

  39. to do this without a title. Let's go over some failed names for the podcast. Let's see. This

  40. was going to be Drop the Mic Podcast. But that's obviously taken. Then I was like, all right,

  41. Respect the Mic. Yeah, let's do Respect the Mic Podcast. Turns out that is two gentlemen in Great

  42. Britain, I believe, have a podcast, Respect the Mic. So big shout out, love the name.

  43. From there, it was like, okay, how do I tie some sort of hip hop in? I am a huge hip hop

  44. enthusiast, although I did make the hard decision not to make this focus completely on hip hop and

  45. hip hop culture, even though it's a huge part of me. That's where I started listening to a Trap

  46. remix and they sampled the Jay-Z quote, I will not lose. I said, ah, you know what? I like that.

  47. Let me see if I can build something off of that. So we hit Google and wow, doesn't exist. There's

  48. a not lose podcast, but there is no, I will not lose. So without committing to being hip hop and

  49. trying to get a sample cleared from Jay-Z, trust me, my mind started going with, I will not lose.

  50. I started to think that, you know, if you don't have, I don't want to say if you don't have a

  51. goal, because it's always important to have goals, but sometimes it's better to set your goal at 50%.

  52. And when you get to 50%, set it to 70% instead of trying to set it for 150%. Because then even

  53. if you hit 120%, you're still going to be like, man, I fell short of my goal. So the idea of

  54. falling short of a goal, the idea of failure is an interesting one to me because you don't learn

  55. anything from successes. You learn everything from failures. And as I'm going and consuming

  56. content over the week, I'm like, wow, there's all these stories of people. Everybody wants to hear

  57. Elon Musk about how he launched the spaceship to Mars and recolonized a new planet and saved

  58. humanity. But nobody wants to hear about the failures that he had before PayPal and before

  59. is entrepreneurial success. I do. I think that's great. So I started thinking, who do I know?

  60. I didn't want this to be a guest-oriented podcast, but you can tell from my setup that

  61. there's just too many great stories. There's too many successes of people who have failed

  62. of something. I really think we can create content for years, if not decades, just based off the idea

  63. of changing the perspective, changing the mind state of when you have a failure, what can I

  64. learn from it immediately? So yeah, I will not lose podcasts. Stories of successes learn from

  65. failures. We'll come up with catchy stuff and we'll start growing and we'll figure it all out

  66. from there. Once I decided I wanted to do it, I started flipping my basement, clearing things out,

  67. making room to build a studio simply because I had a dream the night before that I did it.

  68. And when I woke up and didn't have a studio, I was really upset and I just couldn't sit well.

  69. So got everything together, said, hey, I need a logo. My background is in graphic design and

  70. video. So I said, I do have some of the skills to not have to outsource all of this. So I started

  71. on the logo. It was a microphone. You're not going to believe me because you're never going to see

  72. it, but I had a microphone with the cartoon flame coming out of it and wings. And it was like a

  73. trophy. And it was like, I will not lose. And it had the text all sick. And then I showed it to my

  74. boy, Johnny. He's the only one that's ever seen it. He's like, nah, that's pretty sweet, but let's

  75. get these audio drivers together. So I download the audio drivers for the Tascam. It asked me to

  76. restart. And I don't even think, I've just been designing this logo for two, three hours. I didn't

  77. even save. So I restart my computer and I go to launch the logo, all gone. And I'm not recreating

  78. it. So I said, all right, here's my chance to really figure out what it was. It's right now

  79. about 1230. Now it's 1.15 PM. I got up slightly after 12. This is the longest I ever slept in

  80. because I was just up till two or three last night working on logos, putting some things together. So

  81. let me know what you guys think. I will not lose logo. All right. So now we got the equipment. We

  82. got the area. We got the logo. We don't quite have all the camera, the things we need, but we have

  83. enough to start record. Do I really want to do this? Who am I to be an orator? Who am I to have

  84. a voice that I think people would care to listen to? But then I thought that's the wrong mentality.

  85. It doesn't matter who would listen. You're listening right now. You have to understand

  86. and that means the world to me. So it is up to me to provide quality content and give you a reason

  87. to listen and come back. I'm going to shoot for about 20 to 25 minutes per podcast in the

  88. beginning, and eventually it'll evolve into something long form. But I have to see which

  89. interviews hit. I have to start somewhere and see what works. And I will be reading comments. I will

  90. be reading things. If you had a negative comment and you're telling me to go screw myself, well,

  91. good luck. I have a complete, complete barrier against other people's opinion. I mean, in fact,

  92. it's to a fault. I really don't care what people think of me, but I do prefer that they think

  93. highly of me. So if I'm droning on and this is completely boring, please pass it on to somebody

  94. who may care for it or just tell me. And I will, within character, make some changes to make this

  95. what you want to be, who you want to see, stories you want to hear. What can we talk about? Well,

  96. obviously I can talk forever about the things that I love, gaming, hip hop, tech. And part of me even

  97. said, hey, if I can't get a bunch of great interviews and I can't make a huge I Will Not

  98. Lose success podcast, then I'll just make a gaming channel called I Will Not Lose and I'll bust your

  99. ass in some Halo Infinite. So I really cannot lose because I didn't set myself up with any goals to

  100. to fail at. That doesn't mean that I'm just going to hit record and talk. Trust me. I didn't go and

  101. flip an entire area and build a podcast studio and stay up late just to hit record and rant.

  102. But the ability to be able to do it and do it well and have it sound good is very important to me. So

  103. I will be working from notes. There will be some structure, although it's malleable at this time.

  104. I will be waiting to hear what you guys want to hear as a final content.

  105. Other than that, if I forgot you in the shout outs, then I'm sorry, but there's still opportunity

  106. to sponsor the next episode, be a guest, shoot an idea for some sort of guests.

  107. What sort of things do I need?

  108. I need a few adapters, but for the most part, I got the basics.

  109. We got two mics.

  110. We got some things.

  111. We will have sponsorship availability for areas like the green screen here in the back.

  112. We'll be able to throw some different things up.

  113. So I'm excited.

  114. I'm excited.

  115. Oh, last shout out.

  116. I forgot.

  117. Nice Jones and Mr. Bedalis over there at Empower 610 podcast.

  118. That, I will tell you, was the final straw that made me say I'm going to do this.

  119. And I listened to their podcast.

  120. they dropped it six days before the pilot. Go on YouTube and search Empower 610. I'll see if I

  121. could throw a thumbnail up in post. But these guys just went ahead and did it. And I said,

  122. man, now I really have no excuse. I would have been sitting here trying to perfect this idea

  123. for at least the next six months to two years. And by that time, I don't even know if the wave

  124. would have been there for podcasts. Trust me, I don't think these are going anywhere. I don't

  125. think podcasts are going anywhere. I think they're here to stay. But that being said,

  126. it's really a disrespect to the platform to say, all right, well, I'm just going to hop on a

  127. computer mic or look, I have all love for everybody that just goes out and does it.

  128. Big shout out to Emilio Mills at the Mills edition. He's an influencer who's now got IMDB

  129. profiles. He's been in commercials. He's done all sorts of things. And his first big video for views

  130. was about how to put your emojis in Snapchat. And he had over 60,000 views and he recorded it on his

  131. cell phone in his kitchen with a painting as the backdrop. So look, I'm not going to tell you to go

  132. and wait and have everything perfect. But at the end of the day, I've been a content creator for

  133. 15 years now. And there's a level of quality that's going to be expected from me. I'm just

  134. not allowed to just wing it. So I hope you guys can understand that I'm not going to let my

  135. perfectionist make this not happen. But at the same time, I do care very much for quality. This

  136. is for you. This is in service of you. So with that, what else do I need? I could use a blessing

  137. or some sort of, you know, shout out to my cousin, Kaylin. She's going to hook me up with some

  138. potions that I can kind of make this, get the mojo going in this place, get some spirituality.

  139. I will probably hit up V for some sort of crystals. It's just, we got a blank slate right

  140. here. We got a gray table and a backdrop and two mics. You'll see from this setup, I am a minimalist,

  141. but I still think we could put some cool stuff right there. So I'm open to suggestions.

  142. Let's see, where are we at right now? I don't quite know how to tell how long I've been potting,

  143. so we're going to wrap it up in just a second. But a couple of the guests that I do have,

  144. just to give you something to look forward here on this, I have some confirmed things

  145. from a few people. I have a gentleman that spent 17 years in federal prison and has come out to

  146. make a success of himself running businesses and certain things. So to be able to go and make that

  147. sort of a flip from the street and flip it into becoming a corporate success, I think is an

  148. absolute story that people need to hear. So I'm going to hold him in the pocket for a little bit.

  149. We do got Gil Thompson. He doesn't know it yet, but he's going to be on the guest. No, I joke.

  150. I would never just set somebody up or put their business out there, but he was one of the people

  151. that believed in me and said, hey, you should go and start this podcast. And I initially wanted to

  152. start it to promote his album, which is Writing to Heal. Don't quote me on the exact drop date.

  153. I want to say October 24th. It's one month from today. You know what? He just posted. And it's

  154. September 24th. Look at that. So I'm going to go out on a whim and say October 24th, Writing to

  155. Heal will be dropping. I'll see if I can drop that graphic up. Now, you know what? I'm not going to

  156. drop the graphic because I don't know if he's released it yet. So we will release the graphic

  157. on the episode when we talk about what went into the album cover and things like that.

  158. I got a gentleman who is a good friend of mine, Robert Spierko. I gave him a call and said,

  159. you know, we've had so many conversations, two, three hours on end. It's usually one of our wives

  160. waiting for us to finish talking when we leave, whenever we hang out. So why on earth wouldn't we

  161. get onto a mic. And he says, well, don't you need like a studio? I often thought about that

  162. and I just didn't know how to do it. Bingo. It hit me. I've been spending my life learning audio

  163. engineering, setting up countless studios. I'll see if I can find in my Google drive and I'll

  164. throw it up. Us setting up at a Nick Fedora's studio when we had the, we literally had a mic

  165. stand connected to the garage door opener and it would hang down and there'd be a windshield that

  166. blocked it from the mic so there's no feedback and we do live performances in his garage with

  167. some kids and uh girls would come over and stuff that was really fun but you know for the past 10

  168. years i've been breaking down and setting up makeshift studios so if i could do that and

  169. provide an outlet for somebody like a bob spirko whose voice just needs to be out to the world

  170. there's nobody this man can't have a conversation with so i think it'd be very important to give

  171. give other people a voice. So this podcast is not about me. It doesn't make sense to just be about

  172. me. All right. So other things we can do with the content, with the content, let's see. Well,

  173. it is a video podcast, so you'll be able to see guests. It will just be me sometimes. So I'm

  174. going to have to see if I can hold an audience without having a guest. That was really big for

  175. me being able to start this. At the very least, even if I never release this and never put a

  176. piece out, being able to talk things out in long form, being able to listen to the recordings,

  177. being able to see if I'm speaking too fast or too slow, this is a form of therapy for me.

  178. So I really cannot, will not, and shall not lose. So I'm approaching about 20 minutes right now.

  179. i don't have a topic other than what's been going on but some of the things i will be discussing

  180. i just have to get it out there um not necessarily things going on with pop culture

  181. but things going on maybe in different industries or successes these successes don't have to

  182. necessarily be things learned from failures of a specific individual these could be things learned

  183. from the failure of a company, a failed product. It could be a failed marketing campaign. I really

  184. think that if you flip your perspective to always think that you can find a success out of

  185. everything, then I think you'll be ready to be an avid listener of this podcast and see how we find

  186. creative ways to flip the bright side, the silver lining, the light at the end of the tunnel when

  187. everything comes through. So this has been, I will not lose. We'll call it episode zero.

  188. There may be an episode 0.1, 0.2. Bean, come here. Come on. Be my first sponsor.

  189. Come here, baby. You're scared of the camera too? All right. I got an all white pit terrier

  190. slightly off camera. You want to come say hi? Yeah. Come say hi. They want to see you, baby.

  191. Yeah. Hey, you're going to not chew my stuff. You're not chew my equipment. Yeah. You're going to not bark while I'm recording. You're the best. All right. This is Tony Ortiz, your host. I will not lose episode zero. Be safe.